Being emo... again

Okay, I didn't fall out of the face of the earth.

Just nothing inspiring, been busy with work & stuff.

These 2 months + haven't been exactly good or memorable I guess.

This has been bothering me for a while. (It happened almost 5 months ago)

I don't know why, some people change in a matter of seconds.

I can't barely recognized him anymore.

One minute I thought like I've known him forever, the other minute he's like a stranger.

Complete stranger.

We planned our future so much, and just overnight, all forgotten.

Why people change? They moved on, and you are left behind.

Chasing their shadows.

There you are, longing them to come back, but deep inside you know they never will.

It hurts. Like hell. It still do.

Hard to go on with life as usual.

When everything you do reminds you of him.

So, why people change?

It's scary. 

Moving on, meet other people.

Of all the people, they could never be compared to him.

Thought he was the one. So naive.

Now I am kinda relationship phobic.

Come & join my pity party T-T

In the span time of these few months, the hardships my family are enduring is suffocating.

Fear, confusion & worried.

I know everything happened for a reason but why do they attacked all together at once.

I don't think they could hold on any longer.

This song is sooo our situation.

The Fray - You Found Me

I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All alone
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, Where you been?
He said, Ask anything.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
That never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who’s ever known
Who I am
Who I’m not, and who I want to be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

Early morning
The city breaks
I’ve been calling
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve
Taking all I want

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Where were you, where were you?

Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait?
Where were you, where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, You found me

Why’d you have to wait
To find me, to find me?

Sometimes I am so tempted to run away.

Away from all these mess.

Peace & stillness. (okay I am not taking bout' death, choi!..More like New Zealand kind.)

Bliss.

Now, work.

I am so sick of it.

It's not what I wanted to do at the 1st place.

Now it's only the money, not the passion.

Same mundane situation everyday.

I want to do things on my own, at my own pace, me being in charge.

People in the office are so fake. Wearing masks everyday.

They could be acting all friendly but backstab you behind your back.

I really loathe this kind of environment.

You can't really trust anyone. Just you yourself.

When I first joined, they will be like "oh, welcome to the big family"

Big family my arse!

I really wanna do the working holiday thingy in UK T-T

5 years target. By 28, I shall be there!

Okay, ranting done.

Now I am back to my cheery self.

PS : I've bought some skincare & makeup stuff! Should I review all of them???